I thirst for change.
So much of this world allows us to fall into ruts and patterns, and we run towards ruts without even thinking. They are our safety zones, our foxholes if you will. I think we forget the fun part about change. To be new, to be fresh and to find a brighter light. It takes daring to accept and embrace change. It's time we all act a bit braver.
I need to change. I've been in one of those ruts and it's been so long that I want out, and I've realized that the only way out is by demanding it. Demand better of yourself. As a population we are always wishing and hoping for things but what we forget is that we can make things happen. We can demand better. It may not be the better we were originally hoping for but it can be better.
I've heard a thousand times that I need to be nicer to myself, that I need to quit beating myself up. So much so that I know all the tricks. I've tried the mantras, positive notes, pick me ups, a new diet or two or six. I've run the gambit but I've come up short every time. And lately I've found myself to be missing myself. Missing the fiery person I've known myself to be. And let me tell you that is a very strange feeling.
We've all had those moments where we don't like who we've become and we forget that there is always time for us to change. So here it is...my journey towards change begins now.
Typically I cut my hair, color my nails, by a new book , or even go on a diet but this time I'm trying something inside rather than outside. I am starting right here and now going to demand better of myself. I will not let the world dictate how I feel about myself. Its time I decide how I feel about myself and If at the end of that tunnel I don't like what I see then it's time for change.
As of a few days ago I'm making my first small changes. I'm drinking more water, I am eating at least 90% vegan, and I'm giving myself a break mentally.
From this moment forward I do solemnly swear to demand better. To demand happiness and make it happen. I swear to be nicer to myself and to others. I swear to show a little respect for myself. I swear to climb out from my rut and find that girl I want to be.
I swear to be completely me.
I know it's harder to do something like this than it is to say but the only true failure is not to try
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